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Losing a Best Friend

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I Miss My Friends

A Lot


This has been one of the most emotionally draining weeks of my life. 

    So, I'm very much an animal person and get very attached to my pets; more attached than someone probably should, but I just can't help it. So about a week ago my cat went missing.
         He's gone missing before, but this time is different, his food isn't being touched and there is no sign of him being anywhere around our house. It all just seems so wrong, especially right in the New Year. I know that this is just one of the risks of having and indoor/outdoor cat, but my parents wouldn't allow me to keep him inside all the time, plus he seemed to enjoyed roaming around, as most cats do. It just feels very wrong and very lonely now that he's gone. I have no one to have my breakfast with, or to watch dumb television show with me, or to share my dinner with; even though I shouldn't, it just doesn't feel right. I just miss him so much. 
    It's strange because I've had other cats go missing after a few months or even a couple years, but I have never felt so upset about it. There was just something really special about my little Bubs (Snooks) that has really left me with a hole in my heart. I usually don't like writing such depressing things, but I don't have anyone else to talk to about this because nobody loved this cat the way I did. He was my best friend, and I just want him back. Any time anyone brings up the subject of him missing, I just can't seem to stop my eyes tearing up and I usually have to leave the room to go upstairs and cry until I calm down. 
    I also think today has been especially rough because Gemma (my other cat) had to be put down 6 months ago today (July 11, 2013) due to old age, so my life has gone from having two amazing cats to a very empty house in such a short amount of time. It's just feels very wrong to not have any cats as I've had at least one cat in my life for 14 years of my life, and I'm only 18. I just keep thinking that he'll be home in the morning for his breakfast, or for his dinner, but he never turns up. I keep thinking that I'm hearing his meow or the bell from his collar ringing, but when I check, there's no one there, and it's breaking my heart. I don't know how to deal with it, and  nobody else seems to really care that he's gone. 
    I just miss having my friend around me, even if he was just sitting with/on me while I was doing pointless things around the house, or sleeping next to me at night, or stealing food from dinner plates left alone on the table. I just really want my cat back. 
    My mum thinks that someone else has pick him up/been feeding him, but even if that's the case, I hate thinking that he would just leave me, as if I meant nothing to him, even though I know that I was special to him as he would seek me out when he came home, or get up when I came downstairs, or follow me around the house. He was just a really special boy and I want him to come home. 

    I just really need my best friend back. 

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Also, I don't really care if you disagree with my points, or say it was my fault as I let him outside, this journal is to help me get over my loss, not yours. 


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Feature

12 min read
So, its been awhile like 5 months ...yeah...
so i decided its time to do another feature!!
but this time it shall be themed to: BLACK CATS!!! because i love them and this is my journal  
So, without further ado, here: :D

Super special thanks to TeaPhotography for everything and for just being a great friend!! :heart:
A Special Season by TeaPhotography Black Cat Beauty by TeaPhotography The Face of Little Johnny by TeaPhotography Engaging by TeaPhotography

And just some other amazing art!! :glomp:
The Black Cat by clockworkartshop The Black Cat by Acacello Black Cat by iKate black cat by ron617 black by idilsalihakuntuz .:The Black Cat:. by moroka323 Black Cat by FattCat Black Cat by SnowLynx :thumb18390232: black cat by Black-God-69 Black Cat in Dark Room by vladstudio Black Cat by MoCore bad cat by wolf-minori Black Cat by KisaSunrise Black by WouterPera Black Cat for Black Cat by JKSketchy Black cat - Gato negro by Figuer Poe's Black Cat by SKSProps Black cat II by WitchiArt :thumb197115653: Black cat by Embbera Black Cat Selina ACEO by Zindy Selina Black Cat by Zindy Cat Went Crazy by IlonaPankevich Cat In Black by FelesTacita :thumb289340216: :thumb31277318: Black Betty by Ileina Cat by Drehli Black Kote Under the Stars by IlonaPankevich :thumb320473945: Halloween Cat by DragonsAndBeasties Black Cat by MegLyman Black Cat in the city by The-mind-of-Mikey

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Nice and Hot :D

4 min read
Gallery // Favourites


So, im FINALLY on holidays!! wooooooooooooooooohoooo :w00t!: so i get to spend a lovely 2 months of doing nothing but going to the beach!! yayayayayay!!
its getting so warm here, like its 36 (degrees C) here tomorrow (or 96.8 degrees F) which is awesome!! i just love the hot weather!! :sun:
i really dont enjoy winter here, we get rain all the time with no snow, like you lucky people in america/canada/uk/etc. i think i'd like winter more if it snowed, but oh well...:shrug:
are you all excited for Christmas?? i know i am!! :D i get to start decorating the house now woooooo, decorating is so fun!!
oh yeah, i finally dyed my hair red, after like a year of wanting to, but never doing it. i love it so much!! :heart: its not like a bright red, but more of a burgundy/blood red colour, which is what i really wanted, so im really pleased with the way it turned out!! plus the dye was really cheap, which is always a bonus when it works this well :D (at least i think it did haha ^^; )
anyway, just felt like updating my journal
hope you all have a great festive season and enjoy time with family and friends and all of that business!!
bye for now :wave:

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Computers D:

2 min read
so my computer is broken...again :(
WAAAAAAAHHHH
i havent even had it for like 6 months yet and it already died!! technology, why do you hate me so?? :cry:
so pretty much everything is on a hold right now including DA, school and socially interacting via the internet
now i have to use my bros computer, which he is on almost 24/7, so i have to wait patiently until something else distracts him
oh first world problems XD
anyway, that all i had to say...i wasnt really going to make a journal for this, but i hadnt made a journal in over 2 months, so i think its time for a change, plus this journal skin was just too cute to resist!! :aww:

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Holidays

4 min read
Gallery Prints Faves Website


i love holidays!! theyre so amazing...not that i really do anything, but i do get to stay home alone a hell of a lot which is always good. and i get to go for long walks to the park which i love im such a loner

i dunno, i always feel really good when im alone, like i dont have to worry about anything, like in my own little world, its a nice change :D

i really dont have anything to talk about but im bored so this is what you get XD

anyway just thanks to all my new watchers (and my older ones, i love you guys) i really appreciate the support!! :heart: i really didnt expect this much people to actually like my work, its a little overwhelming, but it is and amazing feeling to have people like your work. its kinda insane.

i was thinking about maybe making videos of my work and putting them on youtube, but i want to try some things out before i do anything because im not sure the quality will be great because i'd be working with a webcam or a phone camera, so i dunno :shrug: i'll try it out :)

just thanks a lot everyone, for faving, watching or even just looking at my art. lots of love :heart:

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